I'm a bad blogger

I keep thinking about things to blog about but actually sitting down to write them has been the challenge. I have always lacked discipline when it comes to journals.

Part of the problem has been me recent state of melancholy. I've been going through some hard things lately (private things I won't be blogging about here anytime soon) and it has been challenging to function basically.

I am thankful I have managed to shower.

One of the hardest parts is managing how I feel with the wonderful events happening in other people's lives. It is so strange how a piece of news can make you both really excited and really sad all at the same time. I don't know how much of it I would call jealousy. I don't think it is that.

But I am fairly positive that what I am feeling is completly normal.

And I am actually really proud of how I have been managing those feelings though. The feelings of happiness have been greater than the feelings of sadness. And I tend to think that sadness is a much stronger emotion than happiness.

I am so grateful for my husband. That is the one thing that has been really great lately... Phil.

Seriously.

Love, Mrs. Janney