Emotions

As I mentioned before, I have had a big deadline at work that has kept me very busy this week.  I've been working like a mad-woman.  Getting to work at 7.  Leaving the office at 6.  Working as fast as possible.  And then taking my work home to work for another few hours.

Since I have felt exhausted for the last, oh, 6 months the fact that I have even been able to work this hard is nothing short of miraculous.

But I am tired.  And between my normal female hormones and messed up thyroid hormones, I am SUPER hormonal.  Add on top of that the puppies dying.  And the fact that yesterday I had another endocrinology appointment that caused a minor freak out (long story...).

I'm kind of an emotional mess.  Things that shouldn't make me sad make me feel like I could burst into tears.

Here's an example:

I have mentioned in the past that I share an office with an older man who tends to be a bit of a downer.  Last week, my computer crashed and I had to move to an open computer for a few days.  I moved into an area of the office where a lot of people work and a lot of stuff gets done.  I noticed my mood picked up, I was able to focus better, and I got WAY more work done.  Plus, I had learned a lot more about the project we have going and how my boss handles different projects and engineering problems.

It became apparent that it would be a good idea for me to change offices.  And the idea of getting away from my own personal Eeyore was appealing.  So I moved.

Every day since I changed desks, my old office mate has stopped by and asked how my new desk is working out.  I think he misses me.  Now I'm worried that he is lonely.  And the idea of him being literally almost made me lose it.  We are talking waterfalls.  Even thinking about it now kind of makes me tear up.

What is wrong with me?!?!

Ugh stupid hormones!

I really don't know how Phil deals with me.