It started with one of my coworkers explaining to me how exfiltration bioswales work. I know that means nothing to non-engineers, but basically that is like explaining to Martha Stewart how to boil an egg. And the worst part was, he wasn't trying to be offensive. He I guess honestly thought I didn't know how they worked. So apparently he thinks I'm a huge idiot.
Then I heard good news from a couple of people I know. And there is something very strange about being really genuinely excited for someone and extremely sad all at the same time. I'm not really sure how to describe it. It is confusing.
And then I got some more news that I didn't want to hear.
Phil has a presentation day so he has been really busy preparing for that.
By the time 2:30 rolled around this afternoon, I felt really deflated, drained, and alone. I sat at my desk doing my best to just make it through the day and fight back tears. It is the first time since I got my surgery results back that I have been upset. I think I am allowed.
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I decided to give myself last night, while Phil was working, to be upset. Cry. Be sad. And grieve the fact that my life (in the not so distant future) isn't going to look exactly the way I was hoping it would. Last night I hunkered down and took care of myself.
Today I will pick myself up.
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I know that things will get better.
Such wonderful quotes and oh so true! Sorry yesterday was a harder day for you, but love that you are looking on the brighter side while also knowing it is okay to have a good cry from time to time! Also, I know the feeling you are talking about...being super happy for someone else while feeling a bit sad yourself, makes perfect sense to me! :)
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I'm glad you took last night to care for yourself. And you're right, you can allow yourself to be upset -- but the 2nd quote hits the nail on the head.
ReplyDeletePraying for you friend -- if you're ever up for a walk, I'm game! I'll be an ear if you need it