Smile

Yesterday was a blue day for me. I struggle a little bit with the idea of having sad days. I know they are important. If you don't address your actual feelings and try to cover them up, they will seep out into other areas of life. But I still feel strange having a sad day.

Thyroid cancer is one of the best cancers you can get (oxymoron there). There are so many more things that could be wrong with me that are so much more serious than thyroid cancer. However, the word cancer is super scary. I know that having a positive attitude is really important when dealing with healing and the body.

So I know I should be positive but I also know it is ok to be sad.

I am confused.

And then yesterday this song came up on my iPod:

Smile by Charlie Chaplin

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though it's breaking.

When there are clouds in the sky

you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

You'll see the sun come shining through

For you.

Light up your face with gladness,

Hide every trace of sadness.

Although a tear may be ever so near

That's the time you must keep on trying

Smile, what's the use of crying.

You'll find that life is still worthwhile-

If you just smile.

Until I can get how I am supposed to feel figured out, that is what I am going to do. Get up. Take care of myself. Do my hair. Get dressed up.

I think it will help. I feel better already.

Of couse then I got to work and my boss (aka daddy-o) is a major grumpy-puss.  Must not let that affect my mood.