Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Bump and Body

It's a couple of weeks old, but here's a bump picture:

{14 weeks, 5 days}

It's my attempt to be artsy as well as less self conscious.  Getting this picture only took 30 tries and about 3 arguments between my photographer (Phil) and I.  Let's just say it was a learning experience for the two of us.  We haven't done one since, but hopefully this weekend we will get around to it, since I will be 17 weeks.

I'm going to try to post regular bump pictures on here, but I'm not going to lie... I'm a little on the self conscious side these days.  Losing my thyroid and dealing with the stress of cancer has not been super kind to my body.  Ultimately, I know it doesn't matter.  I'll get back in shape after the baby is born.  But one thing I will not be doing is listing how much weight I have or have not gained.  I don't think that kind of information is helpful to anyone.

Don't get me wrong, I am over the moon excited to be pregnant.  Words can't express the relief, joy, excitement, elation, and gratitude I have for being pregnant.  And I've been more than shocked by my vain and ridiculous feelings regarding my body.  In the grand scheme of things, it doesn't matter what happens to my body because I'm going to get a baby.

But I feel a little sorry for my body.  It's had a rough year.  Cancer and then swinging thyroid hormones followed a little soon by pregnancy.  It never really got a break.  Never got a chance to find an equilibrium.  And next year won't be too much kinder to it either.  Phil keeps reminding me that I need to cut myself a lot of slack regarding my body.  He's totally right.

For now, I will do my best to accept that while my body may not look exactly the way it used to or how I might want it to, it's pretty amazing.  It had cancer, was assaulted with surgeries and radiation, and now it's growing a person.  That's nothing short of remarkable, no matter what it looks like.

12 comments:

  1. Gorgeous picture. You treat your body however you want. Baby wants cookies!

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  2. Nat, you look absolutely STUNNING in this photo. STUNNING I tell you! You are a gorgeous woman.

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  3. You look amazing!!! I am soo happy your body is transforming this way!!! LOL!!

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  4. Take the photos...just don't post them if you are feeling a bit down about yourself. One of my girlfriends had a hard time around her pregnancy and now one of her biggest regrets is that she didn't take enough pictures of her bump. Congratulations to you on this exciting and wonderful time

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  5. You look amazing. And I am sitting at my desk chuckling at the idea of being a fly on the wall during this photoshoot.

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  6. This picture is so beautiful!!

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  7. this picture is beautiful! hope you are feeling well! i say keep taking the bump pics! :)

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  8. That bump photo is beautiful!!!
    Also, one of the best parts about pregnancy is just how much you get to pamper yourself. You get to give your body what it wants and needs, and most importantly you get to take it easy! :o) Enjoy it gal!

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  9. Ahhhhhh! Where have I been? Congrats! So excited for you,and your bump :-)

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  10. Wow, you're a strong woman. Love that photo. My husband and I have a hard time getting through photo shoots too. He just doesn't like my photography "tips" and doesn't understand that I need THEE photo before we're done. Maybe I'm just a little too particular ;) Have a great weekend and enjoy that pretty bump.

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  11. Hi there! I'm Hanna! I found your LOVELY blog on the hippity hop!!! Now your newest follower!!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!! You can find me anytime at www.bouffeebambini.blogspot.com

    xooxxo Hanna

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