I didn't think I was going to be this nervous about the appointment. After I woke up from my surgery last week, I just felt so relieved. The whole drive home and that entire night... I just felt this huge sense of relief. And then when people started asking me if I was anxious having to wait a whole week to find out...
Well now that you mention it... SURE!
At first, it seemed like I wasn't really going to be too affected by it. Afterall, I had basically already been told I had cancer. I thought I had gone through the grieving process.
But then the OHSU pathologist gave me some hope. That really made me hopeful. I mean, I thought cancer was basically a sure thing and here maybe it wasn't. Now I keep thinking about just how WONDERFUL it would be for things to come back benign. That sounds stupid. Obviously it would be wonderful if I didn't have cancer.
The likelihood that I would die from complications with thyroid cancer is very small. So in reality, finding out I have thyroid cancer isn't going to mean I might die or anything (at least the way it has been explained to me by my doctors), it will just be a HUGE pain for the next yearish.
(i.e. babies get delayed EVEN MORE. We'll have to have a post about that sometime.)
This whole thing started almost exactly 6 months ago. To finally have an answer and especially if the answer is no cancer... I honestly just can't even describe how that would feel.
After this appointment, at least I will know. Either way... I will know and we will have a plan of attack. Either we move towards kicking cancer's ass or we move onto bigger and better things. At least we will be moving.
I am hopeful. I am prepared. I am praying.
Let's do this.
I'll let you know how it goes.
Honestly, the speed with which I update on this will likely depend on what the news is and how I feel about it. I'll do my best.
These nodules most likely will be benign, however there is a tiny chance that papillary microcarcinoma (1mm size) could be found in the removed lobe outside of these nodules.
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