In a sick twist of irony, now that I can eat I really don't want to.
I'm not sure if it is the result of even higher TSH levels (I get to take my medicine again starting Thursday morning), the radioactive-iodine treatment, or my brain's own defense mechanism from being on the low-iodine diet. Either way... it is lame.
My stomach growls and the thought of eating makes me want to vomit.
Yesterday's lunch:
{I have LOVED Fruity Pebbles since I was really little.
My Grandma always had them when I came to stay at her house.}
Another reason I might not have an appetite... I am a wee bit scared about my scan.
I know I shouldn't be. Phil and Rikkie went over and over with me all the logical reasons that I shouldn't be worried:
1. My endocrinologist and surgeon BOTH recommended I not have the second surgery and radioactive iodine. My tumor was small, fully encapsulated, with clear margins, and minimally invasive.
2. The Mayo Clinic guidelines for treating cancer with the size and type of tumor I had said I didn't need the second surgery and radioactive iodine.
3. I am well under 45, but over 20 so the odds are in my favor that everything will be fine. At worst, my cancer will be Stage 2 which still has an excellent survival rate.
Either way... I am freaked out about it. And it kind of sounds like the endo's office has no plans to tell me the results of the scan until my next appointment... in a month.
Yeah that is SO not happening. Especially since the imaging lab told me that my doctor should have my results by Friday. Basically my doctor's office will be hearing from me at least once a day every day until I get those results.
You know what does sound good? An ice cream sandwich. I think I will have one of those a little later.
I hope you get to eat that ice cream sandwich. And I hope you eat it with a big freaking smile even though the weather is back to its old annoying ways. And I hope you know I'm going to the store to get fruity pebbles soon.
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I hope your appetite comes back to normal soon. I guess it's understandable that it's a bit out of whack, since you've been on unusual restrictions for awhile.
ReplyDeleteAs for the results of your scan, I would also be super unimpressed at them thinking I was going to wait for a month! Oh not a chance! I'd be phoning them the first opportunity I got too, and wouldn't care how crazy and paranoid it made me look!
I hope it's good news when they come back, and you can relax a bit. :)
Your cereal photo = me buying a box of fruity pebbles this afternoon. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope your worries are soon put at ease.
Fruity Pebbles are the best 'feeling like a word that rhymes with chit' food. I can eat a whole box in a day. Shameful.
ReplyDeleteI read your story, and what you've been through (and are going through) is a living nightmare. I went through (and am still in) a health scare that I thought was my thyroid, but instead was early menopause due to Lupus... secondary to birth control. Life can be pretty fecked up sometimes and it blows me away how young the people are that are being affected.
I am so glad I found your blog to put my life and struggled in perspective and can't wait to follow along and root you on!
Britt
Secondhand Magpie