Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Scanning

My whole body scan was this morning.  As I mentioned yesterday, I am REALLY nervous about it.  I was not nervous for the actual scan part.  They use the iodine they dosed me with last week as the contrast and I just laid on a table for an hour and a half, real still (while listening to a movie on my phone).  I am just really ready to find out that my cancer hasn't spread.  That's kind of a duh statement, but whatever.

My go-to outfit when I am nervous/anxious/exhausted/upset is fleece pants.  Fleece pants with a zip up sweatshirt, thermal shirt, and slippers.  But I decided I would shake things up a bit.  Show cancer that I'm the boss and that even if I have to do scary stuff like get a scan, I am not going to do it lying down.  Well, I was lying down for the scan, but you know what I mean.  Metaphorically speaking.

So here's the uniform:

- New Toms
- Skinny jeans
- Orange and White striped tunic
- Comfy sweater (for warmth)
- Hair done
- Full make-up


AND... most importantly...

{Not the best picture.  My hair looked better before the scan.  Laying down for an hour and a half can really mess up a girl's coif.}


Red Lipstick

I'm not sure if you can tell from the second picture, but I am exhausted.  Between having to get up early fro the scan, feeling horrible, and now waiting for results, my mind isn't super focused.  I'm really not sure why I am trying to work this afternoon.  But I will give it an honest effort.

I need to not get freaked out by every mention of cancer that I hear now.  Since I have been back at work today, I have heard 2 references to cancer (one real, one fiction) and both times the person died (real life from cancer, fictional character from a broken water main).  Seeing how both types of cancer are NOT the kind I have (testicular and leukemia, respectively) it shouldn't bother me, but I am little extra sensitive these days. 

I warned my husband to expect extra freak-outs.  He's thrilled.

7 comments:

  1. I can only imagine how you are feeling and how brave of you to share everything with us, thank you! You look adorable in that picture, no trace of your feelings and exhaustion to me, and how beautiful are you with red lipstick! <3 Thinking of you and sending a few extra smiles your way...and cancer-free vibes too! You are such a STRONG lady! :)

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  2. Praying for a good report!!! Love your outfit!!! You will kick cancer's ass, so bad it will never want to come back!!! ;)

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  3. I hope things look good on your scan! I know all about being gunshy around the word "cancer" lately. It seems like it's been following me around since my mom was diagnosed. It's good to see that you are fighting back, and dressing like you've already beat this for good!

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  4. Huzzah for new TOMS! And praying for good results from the scan!

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  5. What a BEAUTY you are....:)
    -H. Fox

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  6. I love your outfit! Here's hoping you get good scan results SOON! :)

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  7. Prayng for you and trusting God for a clean scan! You look beautiful in your picture! Xo

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